Just call stranger. Started off without knowing what to say. Stutter a bit here and there. And then when my voices goes on and on.. my rattle started. Ended with a slightly peace of mind.
Stranger: You sounded lost..
Me: ( surprised) Yeah…I am.
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Me: I feel pathetic to call and talk to a stranger. Made me feel like I have no friends to talk to.
Stranger: What do u think? Do you really feel this way too? Or is it because others think this way?
Me: I don’t know.. I just need to cling on to someone. I can’t talk to my family now. My friend is in China now. I need to talk to someone badly now but I cant do it with my friends. Am i being too dependent on others?
Stranger: It’s only human to feel this way. You can call here as much as you want if you still don’t think it’s a problem.
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It’s only human to feel lonely. It’s only human. I forgot that I am a human. After struggling and giving up so many times, I have condemmned myself countless times and those condemnations are stupid because I should have reminded myself that I am only human. I am only human.
Laughing and being crazy with my friends in school is something that i really cherish and enjoy doing right now. All of them are real. In fact, all my feelings are so real that I sink into them most of the time. BAD HABIT.
I fear.