I am not feeling good. I am not. Because I felt people like me are being discriminated in this society. D. URGH.

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Devastating news.

I received really devastating news to me recently from my course manager. Apparently, I am now struggling in school, buried with completely complicated and confusing syllabus and GPA. Apart from these, I have to spend energy to make new friends with all those new classes again. For all the 3 years in TP, I am so gonna be “unique”.

I am tired right now. Just got back from school.

Still, once again, nothing beats a good music. Listening to  The Fray ” You Found Me”.

I so can’t wait to graduate. Trust me.

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Sista

What’s up with wordpress these days? The entry webpage seems to be in error or something all the time. But thankfully, I am still able to blog.

Nothing beats a good piece of music. 😛

Had a family day yesterday. Went to watch a movie ” 17 Again” with my dear second sister and she ended up loving the movie plus the main actor – Zac Efron. Yeah. Haha.. But it was a rather unplanned night. I mean we sorta went out last minute to Best Denki at CS to shop for a weighing machine.

I got to say, it was so not my idea to buy that machine. Or should i say, women’s scariest thing on the earth? As my sis kept complaining that our house current weighing machine is not accurate.. she wanted to buy a new one. Oh.. did i mention she has been way too obssessive towards her diet these days.

Anyway, I just realised my sis has the impulsive to buy things no matter how expensive they are. Regardless of the price, she would just buy if she wants it and then regret after that. I know her too well. So I stopped her from buying that $60 pretty little machine which would cause her to scream from time to time whenever the arrow moved to the right.. and even further to the right….. Haha..

“I really cherish this moment with u leh! ” haha.

We planned to end the night with a brisk walk home but decided to make a trip to the Indian Stall “Mr Prata ” for drinks and night talk. We actually talked about guys. Talked about how I feel towards her at times and vice versa.

” You very cute leh!!” “We sisters should hang out more often..” ” I feel sad for you leh” ……

After that, our parents came to join us and we had a light supper. Talked and laughed. I wonder, how will my family survive without me lah….. 😛

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Back in action!

Once again, I am back in action! 😛 I feel alive once again! I am in choir now! – Khorale. It’s set up by Kenny Khoo and there are currently only about 11 members in the chamber choir. Small but I think the bond is not bad. It’s different. I like it.

I had my first practise at SMU today with the group for about 3 hours and despite I didn’t sleep at all the night before and I was in school the whole day, I enjoyed myself so much during those singing, listening and “yawning” ( trying to open my throat )…

Once again, I feel alive!!!!! 😛

*yawn* Zzzz….

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That day has come

I have never stopped hoping for that day to come. Never. Because I yearned for the best of both worlds. Greedy as u may say. I am only human. I longed to be loved and love. This desire caused my heart to ache even more today as I had just witnessed a great moment within my family 🙂

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Own company

Got to spend a really nice lovely evening by myself today when walking back to City Hal mrt from the Esplanade. It has been really long since I have felt the presence of myself. It’s not that I missed being alone, it’s the freedom of being where u wanna be and who u wanna be and just be her, care only about you yourself  and be with ur thoughts even if there isn’t any at that moment.

I guess the moment was perfect due to the fact that I was being showered with plenty of love before I was being left alone. Never felt that kind of love before and now, when I was being thrown into my own company, I just feel different. No longer lonely. Blissful, excited and eager to accomplish my next dream.

🙂 I am happy today.

Thanks for asking sw! Thanks everyone! 😀

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These are not in sequence. I just typed whatever pops in my head first.

1) I can’t wait to try Y’s cooking.

2) I really want to hug those people who gave me their comments on facebook despite it’s just a short phrase / sentence, or even a symbol. It helps me slightly.

3) I wanna hug and cry in ur arms for the longest time possible.

4) I want to dance and move like nobody’s business while music is blasting everywhere

5) I want to quickly finish Poly

6) I want to get over with my work.

7) I want to scream.

8) I want to stop feeling afraid of getting a relapse.

This post is another depressing one. I am not gonna lie, I am feeling extremely low and irritated with myself right now. I think it’s due to some stupid reasons which everyone’s facing. Irritated by the fact that my threshold is rather low.

okie, they are getting wet now.

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The Magdalene Sisters ( Sex in the cold climate )

Just finished watching The Magdalene Sisters and it’s documentary ” Sex in the Cold Climate”. I was expecting a more justified ending like the “bullies” would received punish or public humillation or something like that, but apparently, there wasn’t any scene like that and neither in real life did they get charge. What the h.

Three young Irish women struggle to maintain their spirits while they endure dehumanizing abuse as inmates of a Magdalene Sisters Asylum. – from IMDB

U got to watch the documentary as there were real life victims (Magdalene Survivors) being interviewed in it. See how they describe their lives in that stupid place – Stripped naked in front of the nuns and being laughed at by them; Make a confession to a priest and ended up being sexually abused; Lost all contacts from their children…. ……

That’s when they took me to the reverend mother. She shaved my head and gave a severe beating. And then she made me look into the mirror. Absolutely devastating. Your forehead all swelled up. Under my chin all bleeding from where she stuck the scissors wide open. And there’s blood running in your eyes and she’s making you open them eyes. (nun) “You’re not so pretty now, are you?” And all this was because I wanted to see my child. That was all. I said to myself, I have to get out of here, I don’t care how. I will not stay in this place forevermore. But the walls were so high, you’d be cut to ribbons. There was like barbed wire and iron spikes sticking out of the walls. It had to be planned. You couldn’t just spurt out “I’m going,” and go.  – Sex in a Cold Climate Monologue

Watch it. You will feel it and know it.

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